Everything Under The Tropical Sun

I wrote about the bad experience I had the last time I upgraded to the latest version of wordpress. Here we are again, another upgrade in my midst. That reminder has been up there for almost a month now. I’m so hesitant to “click here” but at the same time, I might be missing out on something. I know it will never end. Which I guess is still a good thing, right? That they wouldn’t stop trying to improve this wonderful software?

So anyway, I’ve decided that I’ve waited long enough. It may totally screw up my theme or anything else but I came to the conclusion that I’d rather upgrade and brave the changes rather than get left behind or get some fatal error in the future.

I’m going to close my eyes and click now… wish me luck!

I am ashamed to say that I am a creature of habit. So much so that I really hate the little things changing on me. Just like upgrading to a newer version of wordpress.

Sure, I understand that they like checking on their software and updating it as soon as a bug is found. I understand that all these upgrades are to my benefit. But they really messed up with my last theme just because it was no longer compatible with the newer wordpress version. I could live with that because it’s the theme developer’s responsibility to keep the theme up to date to accommodate the new wordpress version.

Now, imagine my surprise when they changed the whole interface of wordpress. No longer are the tag and the category fields are where they used to be which is right below the text box. They moved all the buttons around! Such bullies! Just because they’re THE software to use by bloggers they can change their interface with little or no consequence. Let’s all face it, they’ve designed a nifty software which makes our lives a whole lot easier.

There must be some bugs still because as I am typing this, it feels like there’s a delay with the keys pressed and when it appears on screen. *Sigh* I hate little changes like this when I’ve already gotten used to where to click that it comes out as muscle memory. Now, I have to adjust my life around yet another wordpress upgrade. *sigh*

I am about to embark into a new chapter in my life. I felt it coming about 2 months ago. Pretty much the same time I started public blogging. An odd coincidence (Maybe. I don’t believe in coincidences)… as soon as I transferred to this URL (from underthetropicsun.wordpress.com), my world as I knew it began to transform.

For years, I’ve been whining about how I hated the job I was in and that I felt I was not living the life I wanted for myself. Contrary to growing up knowing that whatever job I did, I’d do it for the love of it.

My writing was put on the back burner for 5 years (before I started blogging). Now, I’m finding my “voice” again. I’m struggling a bit. It doesn’t come as easily as it once did for me. But slowly, I can feel it coming back. It’s just a matter of time until I find this part of me again.

I took a big leap last month.

I finally got the courage to say goodbye to last my job. I broke away emotionally and from the self-sacrificing program I’ve built around it. Though there’d be a huge lifestyle change for us (my husband and I), he has been so supportive (mainly because he knows only too well how miserable I was).

I’m now working in a less stressful environment. Earning just enough but following my heart. I’ll have enough energy at the end of the day to do all the things I’ve neglected in the past that were a HUGE part of me (writing, photography, etc.).

It feels like that gulp of air after holding my breath for so long. I have my life again. It’s mine to screw up… mine to build… mine to live. FREEDOM. Sweet, sweet freedom. In the eternal words of Martin Luther King:

Free at last! Free at last! Thank God Almighty, I’m [we're] free at last!