Everything Under The Tropical Sun

I’m so excited! We’re going away on holiday next week. We’ll be off to bantayan then on to bohol. I hope I can get a decent internet connection there so I can upload photos. It’ll be awesome!

My husband needs the break. This morning he tells me that he might go to work (when I specifically told him to make sure he doesn’t) after our bantayan trip. I’ve been bugging him to take a load off and relax because his mind’s not what it used to be. He’s so forgetful nowadays and end up making bad PERSONAL decisions. He tells me that he blanks out sometimes and we’d had conversations wherein he’d ask me where I got a certain information from… I’d say: “FROM YOU!!!” Those times would get me really worried… scratch that. I AM worried.

I thought a good long vacation would do the trick. Since Neptune’s coming and all, we took a leave of absence… or so I thought. Now he’s telling me he’s going to go to work. I WANT MY HUSBAND BACK!!! He’s not the same man anymore. Too much work related stuff is cluttering his brain… and instead of him ramping up his disk space… he opted to just delete some of the stuff in there.

So I WAS excited. But what he told me this morning kinda dampened the whole thing. It’s not about me… I’m okay about him working if his mind wasn’t as jumbled as it is now. He’s turned into a workaholic and I’m not happy with the way it’s affecting him. If he still hasn’t improved after this vacation… I’m going to put my foot down. It’s not funny anymore. I can’t ask for advice from anyone close to me because they’re ALL workaholics themselves. If he doesn’t learn how to balance his job and his personal life… what’s the point?

Oh well… at least we’re going away for a while. I just pray it’ll be enough for him to regain some of his mental prowess… I love that mind. I miss it. I want it back.

The meaning of the words “Burn Out” is lost on me nowadays. There were several years when I lived in a burned out world… I’d tire easily… I’d hate going to work… I’d long for the long weekends and go on a virtual vacation by surfing the web for places I’d dream of visiting some day (I loved doing that!).

Nowadays, I’d still get tired but I’m having so much fun doing what I do now. I learn something new everyday and I make it a point to study on something that I’m interested in and is still work related. I don’t know how long this is going to last ’til I want to  run screaming out of the office but for now, I’m content.

Don’t get me wrong. It’s still hard work but work I don’t mind. I don’t mind the work. I don’t mind the pay. The burned out feeling doesn’t come as easily as it once did… and THAT makes all the difference in the world.