I don’t really understand why. I don’t know what to do in this situation either. Sure, I’m not at fault and I should be able to communicate with her but I’m a casualty of war… collateral damage. She’s my friend in facebook… big whoop right? Makes me miss her all the more. Seeing her post recent photos… posting messages on common friends’ walls… it makes me sad. Thank GOD she’s not my brother’s facebook friend. If he saw her with her new boyfriend, he’d probably end up deleting his account.

My brother’s saying he’s okay… that he’s accepted the consequences of his actions. He may or may not be telling the truth but I’m sure of one thing: that if he had the chance to turn back time, he’d do things differently. I suspect that there would still be nights when he’d remember and regret the things that happened between them. I regret the things that happened. I did what I could to keep them from breaking up because I knew that the bottom line was that he loved her with everything he was… simply because he’s a changed man now. I’d think that a woman that had such profound effect on him even after they broke up would be a woman he truly and deeply loved. I mean, because he changed… he tried to better himself… another way to make amends I guess. It’s like it was his only way of saying and proving that loving her wasn’t in vain.

How I miss her. My husband misses her too. She has every right to stay away from us. Maybe we remind her too much of the past and maybe it’s painful for her to keep in touch. I understand simply because it’s painful for me too. I’m also filled with regret… wishing things were different… hurting still as I watch my brother go about his life without his heart… he’ll be fine. Maybe. But I’ll always remember her… will keep on missing her… and wishing her well in my prayers.