The world is right again. :) « Everything Under The Tropical Sun

The world is right again. :)

The world – meaning MY world – is right again… I picked him up last Saturday at the airport and I have my husband back! Three cheers for ME! Hip Hip……… Hip Hip……… Hip Hip…. HURRAY!!!

What changed? How come my world is right up side now that he’s back? Here’s a few:

1. I can fall asleep easily (it’s difficult to fall asleep when he’s not around).
2. I wake up earlier (semi-depression causes me too oversleep – slightly extreme, I know).
3. I eat better (because I cook for him instead of cooking – or the lack thereof – for myself).
4. I’m relaxed.
5. I’m inspired.
6. I’m loved.

I spent the first 23 years of my life searching. I’ve always had a feeling that I was missing something. That feeling turned into desire and the desire turned into desperation until it turned into an obsession. I was obsessed in finding my other half. The search has led me to make one bad choice after another, creating multiple heart aches and pain along the way of my own doing. It wasn’t until I resigned to letting the obsession go that I discovered my other half was actually me.

I was my own missing “something”.

He came. He found me. He saw someone whole but broken.

I was whole. I no longer felt like I was missing something but I was broken. I needed mending and he did that with me. He helped me mend the broken pieces of my soul simply by loving me. He showed me how to love myself. He accepted everything. All of me.

I’m not considerate.
I’m VERY impatient.
I’m not very nice at times.
I can be judgmental.
I can be mean and selfish.

He still loves me inspite of my ugly side. I used to hate myself because of it. He even suffered for a time. I don’t know exactly when things changed. I just know that I’ve slowly started to accept myself for all that I am as he did. Now, I’m whole and not broken. Without him and his love my life would’ve been a drama-filled pit of self-pity and hate. This, I realized while he was away.

But now he’s here and nothing else matters. My world is right again.

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