Cheating on My Husband???
Since we don’t have kids yet and we’re far away from getting pregnant… My husband is a constant topic and inspiration in this blog. He often complains that I bash him a lot. I don’t right? Not too much anyway? (Hehehe.) How I wish I could be writing a travel blog containing all the exotic places we’ve been to. I live in the real world. Maybe someday. Who knows? So my dear husband, I’m sorry but this is another post about you. Live with it.
My husband had the same nightmare two nights in a row. Well, it was not exactly the same but the theme was similar: CHEATING. Yep, he dreamt that I was cheating on him.
In his first nightmare, I had the “decency” to ask him for permission to date around… AND he gave me his blessing. Smart. Whatever possessed him to agree (even in his nightmare) I wouldn’t know. I guess he has this if-you-don’t-want-me-then-i-don’t-want-you thing about him. Such a proud, proud man. But still, right? Even he admits that he doesn’t understand why he actually gave me permission to date around.
In his second nightmare, he caught me in the act (though he claims he doesn’t know who the guy or that he didn’t have a face) and I denied everything. It was like a bad Shaggy video. He kept screaming and I kept on denying (wasn’t I smart even in his sleep? LOL.).
He woke up after both nightmares in a bad mood. Good thing he didn’t take it out on me. I heard of someone who had a dream that she caught her boyfriend cheating and when she woke up, she actually fought with her boyfriend. Poor guy. He didn’t know what was coming. So hence, THANK YOU knowing the difference between the nightmare and reality. I wouldn’t know what I would’ve said or done to defend myself if he did come at me.
I have always believed that dreams and nightmares are our subconscious minds’ outlet. After silencing it during the day, it runs amok during our sleep. So in my husband’s misery, lies my happiness. He doesn’t usually verbalize how much he loves me and he HARDLY writes me… wait… since the year 2004, he’s NEVER written to me. So you can imagine my glee to know that he is indeed possessive of and fears losing me to someone else.
I wouldn’t dare do that to him… EVER. I love him too much to make him go through that kind of pain and self-doubt. I know how it feels like to be cheated on. And it’s no joke. He’s always been kind and loving and generous to me. He’s never given me reason to doubt him. He may have had a gloomy disposition those two days but I was happy and grinning from ear to ear. Some wife huh? But I did assure him that I would never make him feel that way in real life. I just hope that we’d talk about things before they get to that point.
