Hello, CHANGE!
I am about to embark into a new chapter in my life. I felt it coming about 2 months ago. Pretty much the same time I started public blogging. An odd coincidence (Maybe. I don’t believe in coincidences)… as soon as I transferred to this URL (from underthetropicsun.wordpress.com), my world as I knew it began to transform.
For years, I’ve been whining about how I hated the job I was in and that I felt I was not living the life I wanted for myself. Contrary to growing up knowing that whatever job I did, I’d do it for the love of it.
My writing was put on the back burner for 5 years (before I started blogging). Now, I’m finding my “voice” again. I’m struggling a bit. It doesn’t come as easily as it once did for me. But slowly, I can feel it coming back. It’s just a matter of time until I find this part of me again.
I took a big leap last month.
I finally got the courage to say goodbye to last my job. I broke away emotionally and from the self-sacrificing program I’ve built around it. Though there’d be a huge lifestyle change for us (my husband and I), he has been so supportive (mainly because he knows only too well how miserable I was).
I’m now working in a less stressful environment. Earning just enough but following my heart. I’ll have enough energy at the end of the day to do all the things I’ve neglected in the past that were a HUGE part of me (writing, photography, etc.).
It feels like that gulp of air after holding my breath for so long. I have my life again. It’s mine to screw up… mine to build… mine to live. FREEDOM. Sweet, sweet freedom. In the eternal words of Martin Luther King:
July 9th, 2008 at 1:17 am
Good for you, Jopie! It takes a lot of courage to follow your heart. I know that feeling of being in a miserable job and also the feeling of relief when you are finally able to let it go. I wish you all the best in your writing career, and remember, even the great authors had bad days. April
July 9th, 2008 at 3:18 am
Thank you so much for your kind words, April. I’m still a little scared of what the future holds for me. As much as I’d like to call myself a writer… well… not yet, i think. Blogging is helping me find my way.
Thanks again, April. It’s very comforting to know that you went through this too.